Uneasy

I need to vent this out.

Exactly 3 years and 2 months since I first left PH for UAE. I was not thinking clearly if that was the right thing to do on that time. After losing my first job, I instantly took it as a sign that it was the right time to try my luck abroad. I didn’t even research what to expect in UAE, what I knew is I need to take a big leap of faith at the age of 21.

I remember how I cried my heart out when the plane took off. Catching the last glimpse of Manila from the small window, I knew I’m going to miss the country, my family and friends but above all, myself. My old self. Yes, on that moment, I knew that my life and my self would not be the same again.

Fast forward 3 years and 2 months, I found myself packing my luggage, contemplating what had happened on the past 3 years I’m here. Will I go back here or will I stay in PH? Is this my last day in UAE? If so, it’s really a funny thing as I never thought of going home this soon.

Ahh, Life. 2018 gave me the craziest roller coaster ride so far.

Ewan ko. Ayoko na magisip. Bahala na. Hirap din ng puro plano. Wala naman nasunod.

Sayang. Di ko man lang naupdate yung blog ko since 2015. Hayyy.

Sorry for being weird and overly dramatic.

Inshallah, Everything will be ok soon.

Tadaaahh

It's been a long timeeeeee...

Eight months and counting in this diverse country of UAE yet there are lots of things I need to learn and money I need to earn (pun itended). I am starting to get used on my zero social life here. I know, I know, it must be weird for Tweet not to have lot of friends here but as time goes by, our perspective also changed. I've realized I don't really need much friends especially those who are not worthy of our precious time. Our housemates and colleagues at work were sufficient for me. *wink*

Still, I need to find new job because money here is insufficient :'(

22

I'm still alive and kicking! Thank God!. It has been almost four months since my last blog post. I miss you guys more than you miss me, I am still crazy. Amidst of the overwhelming distance from home, culture shock, timezone, depression/ isolation, I am happy to say that I'm getting better each day in the sunny and sandy Abu Dhabi.

Life here has never been easy, like any other expats stories, you will feel the ups and downs of living far from home. I still can't deny that I don't miss home. Every day I wake up is a struggle to face another day, go to work, think about my loved ones back home. But as time pass by, It will all get better.

And as much as I want to deny it, I don't feel like turning 22 tomorrow. Yeah, advance happy birthday to me! Another year would be added to my incredible insanely life and as I look back, a lot happened on my 21st year. Cliche as it may sounds, I would still be dreaming of being Forever 21.

And yesterday was my last day off. Starting tomorrow, I won't be getting a rest day until 2nd week of August though I'm fine to have two half days in a week. Since Youssef, our team leader will be on leave, we don't have a choice. I just hope everything would be fine. :)

Happy Birthday, Tweet! I hope you will be able to know what you really want and do it bravely. Everything will be fine, just trust yourself and do your best. Inshallah!

Feels

This is the first time I cried after setting foot here in the sandpit. I can't put into words the hardships and frustrations living overseas. Finding a job is the hardest especially if you have no gulf experience yet. I miss my friends who were just a tricycle ride away whenever I felt like crying. But I am already here, ngayon pa ba ko susuko kung kelan nandito na ko. Ughh

What time is it where you are?

It's been five days since I arrived here in the sandpit, the United Arab Emirates. Abu Dhabi and Dubai are great cities. There are so many things to look forward to but I guess nothing beats home. I am already missing my family and friends back in Manila and It was really frustrating not to be there physically. I hate the time difference, up to this time I haven't changed my phone, clock and wrist watch time yet, still Manila time. But hey I am beyond thankful to have relatives here in Abu Dhabi, we have TFC, filipino foodies, filipino tenants, crazy beautiful you and Pandesal lol. The only difference was that my mom and brother and friends are not here. And Jolibee is not here. 

There are still many kwentos I'd like to tell, many pictures I wanna share, videocalls I want to make happen but fuck the -4 time difference. I miss being madaldal, I can't be madaldal here, well except with my little cousin. But I seriously want to make new friends about my age here. We will be shopping, bar hoping, eating, jogging, swimming, etc. Huhuhu. Anyway, friends can wait but job can't especially If you are just a holding a visit visa. So the past four days, all I did was to look for a job online, passed resume, tour, eat, chat, look again for a job. I didn't have conditioner and lotion for days, arghh! There are endless opportunities here in UAE, Wag ka lang mapili sa umpisa. And guess what? I will be having my first job interview later for a travel agency near our flat. I don't know how did they get my CV, maybe my CV wandered just like her owner and knocked at their door lol. I'm sorry I don't have anyone to tall jokes with. Ohh blogging has never felt this fulfilling. Thank you.

Flipped

Upon reading my previous posts, I've realized na puro pagkukweto ng happenings sa life ko nakasulat dito, seldom do I write my opinions, thoughts and sentiments. It's just that I'm not comfy writing on public. But hey, that could change. Time to flip that coin, after all, this is a blog. ^^

Self reminder: you're still young and you're not supposed to have your whole life figured out yet. don't stress. everything will work out. (Just saw this from twitter hihi)

Letters to Juliet. Thoughts?

Eh?

0225
Weeks from now, I'll gonna leave the country in search for greener pasture, would there be really one? It's funny how I've always wanted this to happen. This is the plan since college yet I'm scared to face it. Would I get a good job, meet friends or send money at home? Ughhh I don't know. I don't really know what would happen next, I've always felt unmotivated, sad, lazy these days.

And to my family and friends who are so damn dear to me. Most of them don't know this yet, I'm afraid of their reactions yes? It's better that way. I want to start new. I don't know if I'll start new. Well, this is my CHOICE. Might as well deal with it.